Friday, February 27, 2009

Happy Birthday to Me!!!

And Many More!!!

I can hardly believe it but today I turned 20 years old. Honestly I never thought I would EVER reach this age, EVER!! Not in a million years!! I feel as if I have turned a new chapter in my life and have the whole world ahead of me. I am choosing to mark my 20th birthday as the year of age. No more will I look back on the past and regret stupid mistakes that I have made. Being 20 marks a new time in my life. A time for recovery. A time for renewal. A time for LIVING AND LOVING AND ENJOYING MY LIFE!! It marks letting go of the old and broken and embracing a new, and bright and exciting future that God has laid out before me. I feel like with the year 20, I am starting over from scratch and embracing life for the very first time.

Since I have been kind of AWOL this week, I am going to do a short recap of the most significant events. Tomorrow I'll do a post about the Birthday Goodies!!

Dietican's Appointment

This Tuesday I met with my dietician for the second time. I can't even begin to say how wonderful of a lady she is to have stuck with me for the 2 or 3 years that I have been seeing her, despite the fact that I have not yet been able to MAINTAIN A HEALTHY WEIGHT!! But I AM going to do it this time. I am going to go forth with recovery and STICK WITH IT!! I AM IN THIS FOR THE LONG HAUL!!

I was able to talk with her about a lot of the things that have been bothering me, in particular my body weight. At first I wanted her to check my body fat percentage (sorry) to see if I was indeed bigger. Like I said in my earlier posts, I seriously think my body is bigger right now that it was before, especially my legs. Well she was kind enough to talk through it with me and in the end we decided that it would not be the best decision because it would just be another outlet for ED. We also upped my meal plan again which I was okay with. Honestly I have been wanting to eat more because I just find myself so hungry!! Also, even though I gave in to ED I didn't really want to start restricting again. I think it was just very difficult for me to accept the fact that I was recovering and I still wasn't ready to let go.

Towards the end of the session I asked her some questions about why my weight seemed to be bigger in my legs. What she told me really helped to open my eyes and change my perspective. Basically she said that my body was changing because I am older now, and our bodies will naturally begin to change shape in certain areas in preparation for...well....womanhood. And that got me thinking. All this time I had been mourning my EDU and post-recovery body. But I was eighteen. Two years ago!!! Of course my body is going to change! It's older now!! And I suddenly realized that I can't hang on to a little girl's body anymore because I am not a little girl.

So now I am trying to embrace my new body. My twenty year old, beautiful womanly body which still needs to gain a good x number of pounds. And the next day when I looked in the mirror, suddenly I wasn't upset. I realize that this body that I have now, though still underweight, is my new body and no matter what I can't make it go back to the way (weigh) it was before. So I am going to learn to LIKE it!


No I am so not even kidding on this one!!

Okay, here's the story.

So lately when I have purchased some containers of Fage Greek Yogurt, I have opened them up to find a runny, milky, grainy mess instead of the thick, rich and creamy texture that I love. A couple of days ago I decided to write them a letter asking about the problem, but more to question about whether I was still getting the same amount of protein. Well they wrote me BACK!!

Here is what the letter said:

Dear Keiko,

Thank you for contacting us regarding our FAGE Total product.

We have forwarded your complaint to our Quality Control Department for review.

We appreciate your interest and support. FAGE Dairy Industry is one of the largest food producers in Greece ; it operates 5 production facilities in Greece for dairy product production (milk, yogurt, cheese and dairy desserts. Our wholly owned subsidiary FAGE USA Dairy Industry, Inc. has opened and operates a new state-of-the-art yogurt production facility in upstate New York in April 2008.

As a token of our appreciation for your interest in our products, we would like to
send you a case of your favorite FAGE Total yogurt. Please provide us with the product type and the size of the container and its use by date, a daytime phone number and address, so that we may proceed.

Best Regards,
Ann S. Diotte
Consumer Relations & Promotions Specialist

Holy cow and a half!!! When I read this I squealed in utter happiness and just about jumped for joy!!

I am so excited I can hardly stand it!! The only problem is, what am I going to do with a WHOLE CASE of deliciousness that is Fage yogurt??!! I hope it doesn't go bad before I can eat it all. FYI Keiko is my mailing name so I don't attract creepy stalkers!

Well it's getting late and my brain needs some sleep!!

Goodnight to you all!


emilydh211 February 28, 2009 at 3:06 AM  

Happy 20th girl! Hope its a great one, it sounds like your all ready starting off on the right foot! Good for you for being so positive and strong in your recovery. I know you can do it!

That is amazing about the FAGE. A whole freakin case?! I would be in heaven!!

Kiki February 28, 2009 at 4:37 AM  

Happy birthday, girl! It certainly sounds like this year will be your best yet, with all the ED-killing realizations you've been making.

You're so lucky with the Fage! There's always smoothies, if you have to use it up quickly. Enjoy your Saturday!

tinyirishdancer February 28, 2009 at 8:30 AM  


*ginormous b-day huggles*

I hope you have an AMAZING year - you deserve it!

Your dietitian sounds really sweet and awesome. =]
I adore mine, too. She's so helpful and non-judgemental. Those ladies have an INFINITE amount of patience. I will never understand where it comes from..

Plus, free fage?! You lucky duck, you! Yogurt does last a long time, so I wouldn't worry too much about it. Kiki has given you an awesome idea with the smoothies - yUm!

Well, I hope you have a beautiful, relaxing weekend! Take care, girlie - <3's!

emily. February 28, 2009 at 9:43 AM  

happy birthday! :)

Anonymous March 2, 2009 at 5:09 PM  

happy 20th :)
im glad you enjoyed your special dinner!